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A Letter to the Part of You That Is Tired

You are hurting quietly, but I see you anyway.

Riya Mattoos

12/6/2025

I want you to read this slowly, as if I am sitting across from you and speaking directly to the part of you you never show anyone. The part you keep guarded. The part that aches even when you pretend it doesn’t. The part that carries everything alone because you never learned how to let someone stay long enough to understand you.

Yes. I am talking to you.

You who smiles politely while holding back tears.

You who apologises before expressing how you feel.

You who lies awake at night replaying every mistake you think you made.

You who hides the heaviness because you believe people would leave if they saw it.

I know you think you are difficult to love.

I know you think your emotions take up too much space.

I know you punish yourself for things that were never your fault.

I know you worry that one day everyone will realise you are not as strong as you pretend to be.

But let me tell you something you rarely hear:

Nothing about you is too much.

Nothing about you is a burden.

Nothing about your pain makes you unworthy of care.

You are not dramatic for breaking under weight that has been pressing on you for years. You are not weak for trembling when life has been unforgiving. You are not attention seeking for wanting someone to stay and listen for once. You are human. And you are tired because you have survived things most people would never endure with the grace you still try to show.

I know you sometimes feel invisible in rooms full of people.

I know you wonder why no one notices the quiet panic behind your eyes.

I know you feel guilty for being sad when others expect you to be fine.

I know you blame yourself for feeling anything at all.

You do not have to hide that from me.

You can sit here exactly as you are.

You can let your chest unclench for a moment.

You can breathe without earning it.

You can let your truth be messy and unpolished.

You can let me speak to the version of you that is exhausted from pretending.

You do not disappoint me.

You do not scare me.

You do not fail me.

You do not lose your worth because you are struggling.

You were shaped by storms you never asked for.

You learned to be strong because no one gave you the choice.

You learned to stay silent because you were punished for being honest.

You learned to carry everything because that was the only way to survive.

And yet, in all that, you still try.

You still hope.

You still care.

You still want to do better.

You still fight the darkness even when it convinces you that it is winning.

If you feel alone right now, let me be clear:

You are not alone here.

I am speaking to you because someone should have said this a long time ago. Someone should have held your shaking hands and told you that you deserve warmth. Someone should have reminded you that you matter. Someone should have seen the pain behind your quietness.

Let this be that moment.

You matter.

Your heart matters.

Your hurt matters.

Your healing matters.

And you do not have to earn compassion.

I am here with you for this moment.

And you are allowed to stay.